As time goes by I've started to feel more and more disconnected from dA. I am not sure if it's just something going on with me internally, or if it's something with the site itself. But the fact remains that I feel incredibly disconnected from the 'community'.
Now, just to be clear, I am not leaving or anything. I do however want to share and express my thoughts and feelings because it's only a matter of time before they start touching on my overall activity here.
For anyone who used to be around 5 or more years ago, I'm sure you can remember hopping into the chat and always finding some sort of interesting individuals somewhere. Maybe you didn't agree with them, or maybe you didn't even like their sometimes mean antics, but let's be real.. there was always activity to be had and new people to meet.
These days, the chats feel stale at best. I hardly ever join anymore, and over the last few weeks have even started declining to sit in on some drama.. because .. I guess I just don't care anymore.
It's kinda sad because this site and community have been my rock through many hard times, and I have made some really amazing friends here. None the less.. I do not feel connected to the site any longer.
Those of you who read my journal not too long ago supporting the recent changes to the site, I still love what was implemented, and a piece of me is crossing my fingers and toes in the hopes that they will still do what I felt they are capable of, once mobile launches for dA, but I'll be honest and also say that as much as I want it to work out.. I just .. I'm unsure if it will.
The community was always what made this place better than anywhere else... and these days I do not feel like we have that community anymore. Granted, I have the equine and HARPG communities to fall back on (which are thriving communities), though, they feel so disconnected from dA as there is no real representation for us.
We are just in the shadows and overlooked, and it feels lonely.
I imagine there are other communities on dA who feel much the same as we do and a piece of me hurts for those communities as well.
Should we merely look to our own communities to make this site great?
Maybe I am looking at things all wrong here, I really don't know. But what I do know is that I am disconnected.
I do not feel like I belong on the site on a larger scale anymore.
I am here to do what I do in the horse community, and everything else just doesn't matter anymore.
I feel depressed about the state of things here and it sucks because I can't even put my finger on what exactly is causing me to feel that way. It's just one of those things I guess? I wonder if maybe I am just outgrowing the site as many others do at some point?
I have no intention on leaving, but I do need to reevaluate my 'community' involvement. Don't worry, I'm still very much connected with all my horsie things on here. They are the anchor that is keeping me here (without them, I probably would have stopped logging in on a regular basis already). But everything else.. it's just questionable if I should be involved outside of my community anymore.
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